In a Strange Land: Eight

She surprises me every time she shows her face, and yet she has always been with me. Now that I am in exile, I know that she is closer, though perhaps she has always been this close. It may be that the only thing that is different now is that I have become more aware of her shadow.

She is with everyone and with every living thing. There is nothing special about me; she regards us all, and sooner or later she will reveal herself to each of us.

I believe that she is no grim reaper, no collector of souls. I believe that she has no interest in souls or heaven or hell. Her instinct is to put an end to pain, an end to fright and suffering. Vengeance is not her passion. Instinct guides her. She is not the destroyer. She is the mother of beauty.

I did not know when she would come to me, only that she would come.

It will be no random time. She is not capricious. She is not predictable. I feel her shadow, and her presence makes life dear.

Her reason often cannot be explained. Why does she come for some at night in a forgotten dream? What moves her when there is no pain, no fright and no suffering? I can only imagine that her vision is so much larger than my own. She sees the hurt, the fear and the anguish before it touches our meager senses.

I was aware that my life was growing shorter.

There is an immutable finiteness of life that no protest and no conquest can alter. I do not fear her. I fear more the torment that only she can calm.

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  • On June 8, James Comey testified before the Senate Intelligence Committee. Trump fired Comey as FBI Director on May 9. In written testimony released before the hearing and in his oral testimony, Comey described a meeting with Trump on February 14 in the Oval Office. According to Comey, Trump met privately with him after asking others in the room, including the Attorney General, to leave. Trump told Comey that he wanted to talk about Mike Flynn. Flynn had resigned the day before from his position as National Security Advisor after making misleading statements about his contacts with the Russian ambassador. Comey testified that Trump told him that Flynn “is a good guy and has gone through a lot.” Trump said Flynn had not done anything wrong in speaking with the Russian ambassador. Trump said to Comey: “I hope you can see your way clear to letting this go, letting Flynn go. He is a good guy. I hope you can let this go.” In his testimony, Comey said that although Trump never ordered or directed him to drop the FBI’s Flynn investigation, he took it as a direction: “It is the president of the United States, with me alone, saying I hope this, I took it as this is what he wants me to do. I didn’t obey that, but that’s the way I took it.” Comey’s testimony raised the issue of whether Trump attempted to interfere with the FBI investigation or obstruct justice.
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